If you honestly believe what you’re writing, I have a couple of thoughts.
About your career choice and the search for meaning:
What kind of law was your specialty and what did you hate about your job?
If you’re interested in the search for meaning, you could be saving people’s lives if you have the legal skills to protect people affected by the unjust actions of the US Immigration and Customs Enforcement. Or you could work on cases where the justice system has failed people due to the racial biases built into the court systems of so many states. Or you could work to protect old people who get scammed by getting involved with consumer protection.
Even if you only did some part time pro bono work, you might find more meaning in saving someone’s life than joining the thousands of people who hope to make a living as a life or brand or executive coach.
About getting a clue:
Is your search for awareness or just finding something you like to do?
There’s a big difference.
If you are searching for awareness, you might try expanding your search for knowledge beyond Jordan B Peterson — try reading Ayn Rand (just kidding).
When a professor of psychology becomes a culture warrior, you tube self-help guru and a political advocate for the right wing, that’s the mark of someone who wants to profit instead of someone who wants to be a prophet.
There are so many other sources of wisdom to explore than the latest snake oil salesman.
I just looked at his 12 Rules and we’re not talking about any real enlightenment here, other than rule 11: “do not both children when they are skate-boarding.” Now that one really blew my mind.
Rule 4 is basically just rehashing another self-help guru who talks about Gain vs Gap.
But the ignorance and arrogance of rule 5: “Do not let your children do anything that makes you dislike them” is laughable. Did this guy kill or lobotomize his children when they became teenagers?
I also love the subtle fascist flavor tones in rule 6: “set you house in perfect order before you criticize the world.” Not only is perfect order an impossible goal, but it invites the kind of narrow minded parental totalitarianism that had driven millions of kids to run away from home. On the other hand, waiting before you criticize a world full of injustice sounds like the perfect way to control the masses while the assholes of the world keep doing business as usual.
About being an idiot:
The problem is not that you are an idiot. Self-awareness is a fantastic gift.
The problem is if you are a confident idiot because in one way or another we all are.